So sorry i havent updated in a while, ive been a mess latly. Im in treatment and the only way your allowed on the computer is if you eat 100% of your meals. And i havent yet. But i found a loupol in there little rule, your allowed on the computer in the morning. I cant believe i went two weeks with out facebook, blogger, and WE. I wish i would have known.
So i have had alot go on with me in the last two weeks, last thursday my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. That day was horrible for me, it felt so sur real. Like this shouldnt be happening to me, too her of all people. I really hope she'll be able to beat this, i cant lose another parent. I swear if somthing traic happens, i will break, i will go insain. But i need to keep positive..
In the two weeks that ive been here, i havent completed my meals once. Ive been doing a little better these past few days though. Getting 60-75%, its really hard when you know your enitre meal plan is 3500ish calories. Those damn ensure plus's, they'll be the death of me. I have barly gained any weight since i got here, and the amount i have gain my doctor thinks is water weight. I still got a ways to go. I may be here 3-4 more weeks. I dont want to be here that long, but if i dont shape up and decided wheather or not i want recovery then im screwed. So its about to be breakfast time, ill hopfully be on tomorrow morning to update.
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